have you ever had those moments where you want to cry and punch someone at the same time? yeah im having one of those. arguments suck. they could be my fault or w/e. i just hate them all. its not my fault i like to complain about my shit life, i just do. basicly im hated because i complain. this "person" really doesn't give a shit about me. but this person doesn't want me to complain so im just gonna shut the fuck up about them. i've cut myself a lot already and will continue to do so until im dizzy. and i don't give a shit about the "cutting isn't good" bullshit you'll try to push on me either. and i don't mean the person i was talking about because they don't care at all.

i know i've made some mistakes in my life but this one just makes all the others look like shit. im literaly shaking with rage, regret and sadness right now. why the fuck can't things be like the way they used to be. and no one will understand this unless your the person. but again, here i go bitching again. *Edit: i left at this point so i could go outside in boxers in 21ª weather to yell "fuck" over and over.*

*Edit 2: I went to go cry for a while, about 10 min.*

.......................i calmed down a little.. not to much. the damage has already been done. the person hates me. the person will never like me again.

i fucked up.

big time.

theres no going back.